Saturday, December 10, 2005
i feel so so so guilty today! oh man. well ming xin came today and i hardly was there to talk to her or make sure she had fun and all that. yeah was too pre-occupied with my own thoughts. and i feel guilty cause it was my responsibility to bring her into church and i didn't have to cause ming wai did that. the first step has been done for me and i'm just not embracing the opportunity. so in the end i promised elder woon guan that i'll do it right tomorrow. and she has a way of making me feel more guilty cause she said she trusted me and all that. haha in the end she made me promise God. so yes i promise. (:

anyway it seems that i haven't been focusing much on things these few days and i can't seem to put my heart at doing anything. and i would much rather sit and stone the whole day away. so that was what i tried to do today. haha shun away from work. haha

oh well it suddenly seems that i have so many things i want. so many things i need to get done and want to get done. like get my studio wu classes settled once and for all. and i want and need cash to shop at malaysia next sunday. genting and KL! oh man! malaysia mega sale! who doesn't wanna shop! but i'm cash-less. and my mum says i have too much clothes? maybe cause she always sees the same thing i'm wearing as new. everything i wear she doesn't believe i got it a long time ago and she can ask me when i got the same shirt like on five different occasions. and then i tell her she's seen it before and she doesn't believe me. tsk

alright i'm feeling rather sleepy today. andandand i have double duties tomorrow! cause joel happily chucked his duties to me and flew off to thailand or who knows where. tsk and now that joy is over at the primary side i have no one to accompany me to sheng siong to get food for refreshments! ughh

okay i should go and settle my testimonial now.

goodbye